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[Nov. 7th, 2005|07:34 pm] |
so i had to save this
SmokkkinShotgunS: you always have what i want
SmokkkinShotgunS: that SOMETHING that you can fall asleep next to, and wake up next too
SmokkkinShotgunS: i wantyou to run around nakey, with jsut a robe on,..and then come lay on my lap when i'm drinking coffee...and maybe, i'll pick youup. swingstyle, and carry you off with MY hair blowing behind me
SmokkkinShotgunS: =perfect dream
hehe so cute |
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[Oct. 13th, 2005|06:42 pm] |
why, i dont get it.
why does he have to be like that?
my dad.
i cant stand it.
i miss my mom so much its insane. i cant help thinking would i be happier in ky? no because michael is here sarah is here my friends are here.
melanie i cant take
my dad i cant take
i dont know what to do.
im the only one who does anything around here.
so my dad comes home today
pushes me at the door
and says to me "your room is a mess, the whole house is a mess"
when i told him i cleaned it
he replied with his usual response of its not good enough do it again.
and i asked him what do you do around here?
I PAY THE BILLS! I MOW THE LAWN! I CLEAN EVERYTHING! then he says probably the meanest thing ever.
all you have to do is your chores and get good grades thats all your good for and you cant even do that. he says im really starting to piss him off because i dont do anything. he says im lazy and i have an attitude.
melanie is the one with the attitude
she comes home the other day and tells my dad i need to start doing more around the house. that when i clean up i dont do it good enough.
CAN I DO ANYTHING GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU?
i dont know what im supposed to do anymore.
i really dont. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2005|10:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | matchbook romance-if all else fails | ] |
so i guess latley ive been worried about me and michael.
and im scared.
i just feel that hes distant.
i think tonight worried me the most.
usually when he leaves we spend 20 minutes outside telling eachother "i love you more".
well tonight it was pretty much okayloveyoubye
and i guess we just dont act like we used to.
and i hate it.
i feel like maybe im pushing it on him too much with the "i love you's" and the "your cute's"
but i love him and i tell him that i care about him.
i KNOW he cares about me to death
but i guess im just a girl and it seems hes not into being the cute little romantic couple anymore
all of a sudden he stopped with the bee bee topas and the i love you mores and your cute
it just scares me more than anything
i get worried well what if he likes someone else
or what if hes sick of me
i hate worrying.
but its what a girl does best.
i just miss my old michael.
not that i dont love him now.
i always will.
he just seems distant.
todays my moms bday "HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!!!!!!!!!!"
shes the best
im scared about that too, that after i visit her this weekend, i wont get to see her anymore.
wow.
i need sleep. |
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[Aug. 29th, 2005|06:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ecstatic | ] |
okay
so its official
ME AND MICHAEL ARE OFFICIAL BEE BEES!!!!!
and its the best feeling ever.
and this weekend.. oh goodness is going to be the best weekend everrrrrrrrrrrrrr
with my hoe sarah and her pimp danny and my bee bee topa michael!!!
my mom sent me a real cute letter and 5 dollars and like 35 cents
shes real cute!!! |
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[Aug. 26th, 2005|08:42 pm] |
ohhh dear i havent updated FOREVERRRR!
so last night was so amaing. like probably one of the best nights ever.
spent the night with michael. and i wish it could be like that every night.
its like so unbeliveable, how much you can feel for one person.
and he has my whole heart.
well, i worked everything out with my dad, today i kind of just broke down and started crying.
i felt so stressed.
but everythings okay gladlyyy.
soooo sarahs over here and were gonna hang out and watch movies and cuddle cause were cool like that.
and she likes this boy and were excited!!
IF YOU MAKE A 2 YOU GET A 2!!!
ITS THE SAME STUFFF!!
I DONT CARE IF YA MICHAEL JORDAN!
omg.
michael is so cute.
and so is sarah.
and danny!
we are the best everrrrr omg. |
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[Aug. 11th, 2005|06:39 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
so its 6:30 in the morning, i got out of the shower about an hour ago.
gr its so early and im so tired.
1 more year of school i cant wait.
i guess while it was going it seemed to take forever but now that its almost
over its like wow, where did my high school years go?
so that means i have to be a grown up.
wow that sounds weird.
but i really think im going to do well.
go to hair school do something with modeling
maybe be a suicide girl ha.
theres so many things i want to do.
so supposedly me and my dad are moving out this month.
i hope so.
my stepmom is the ugliest stupidest person ive ever met.
shes not coming with us.
so last night i told michael that i think things between us
are better than they ever were. weve both grown up a lot since
we used to date.
i love that boy. hes my best friend.
and as for sarah, i may not see her that much but it doesnt mean
that i dont care about her or want to see her. and i think she thinks
that.
tyler sent me a really good cd.
makes me think of him.
and id love to see that boy again.
i miss my mom.
oh last night i watched this show called born without a face.
its about a little girl who was, well, born without a face.
i cried.
it was so sad. like, it was so weird looking that it was cute.
roar.
i remember when me and my mom used to watch shows on tv every night like
average joe and stuff. AHH I MISS MY MOM!!!!!!!
and i miss my cousin adam cause hes the best cousin everrrrrr!!!!
i think he needs to come to GA to see me!!!
ew.
i have to go to school soon. |
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|07:15 pm] |
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| |  grumpy | ] |
ew.
school started today.
and i havent been feeling well.
ew.
i want to be america's next top model. |
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[Aug. 4th, 2005|09:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cranky | ] |
alright so today i went with sarah to get her first tattoo (not fair not fair!) in alabama.
it looks so cuteeee!
yesterday was warped tour.
i liked it a lot better last year (the bands) but being with all my friends this year was wonderful.
i want my monroe pierced. but i dont know what anyone thinks about that. i dont know if it would look good.
i miss my mom.
why does she have to live in ky?
i hate it.
:(
so yea tyler was at warped, didnt see me GOSH!!!!!!!!
that makes me saaad.
on top of that, i felt weird around matt.
i dont know what to think about it either.
not what i expected.
im really tired. |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2005|12:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | something corporate - me and the moon | ] |
mmmm im sooo sleepy!
its noon on tuesday morning (my mom is coming tonight) yayyy!
so last night michael came over and we watched constantine.
i didnt understand that movie one bit!
blah.
im going to get my schedule for school changed today.
there is no way im taking the classes i got.
ew.
anyways,
aww sarah is sick!
she needs to get betterrr!!
we have to go to flordia on thursday because that would be the funnest everrr!
i <3 sarah like whoa.
these are the best pictures of me and her everrr .
and i totally made those jeans that i have on :)
 
anywayyys.
my mom is coming!!
for those of you who dont know, my mom is my whole world!
my dads pretty cool too.
yesterday he was dancing and shaking his but to hollerback girl.
but saying hollerback dad.
i thought it was funny :)
so i think im going to get a new bed and dresser for my room in atlanta today.
im excited <3
i love new stuff.
because im a spoiled brat.
hehe.
so michael <333 whos my best friend in the whole world by the way
this boy ^ ^ ^ by the way, is amazing. i dont know if ive said that enough yet.
<333333
anyways, before he came over i got really really bord and took some pictures.
 
ew.
haha.
yay warped tomorrow.
im excited!
oh yea
tyler♥ |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2005|12:56 am] |
| [ | music |
| | the rocket summer - shes my baby | ] |
SmokkkinShotgunS: u are my angel for rEAL
yea.
enough said <3 |
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[Aug. 1st, 2005|03:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the honorary title - petals | ] |
so i think i pretty much woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning.
im tired and really grouchy.
+ i didnt wake up until 12 which is way too late for me to sleep in.
anyways i just talked to my stepmom and she asked me and sarah to go to flordia for a day with her on thursday so im pretty excited about that.
the whole thing with sarah is, we argue about stupid things.
really really really stupid things.
but half the time i dont even know what its about.
it seems like a cycle.
i dont know if will ever break
we fight fight fight
then are fine for about 10 minutes
then something else goes wrong.
but i suppose no matter what we will always be friends.
because i <3 sarah
even if she makes me mad sometimes. hehe.
so ive pretty much decided what i want to do after high school.
i was planning on moving back to kentucky but i guess im not anymore..
really all thats there for me is my mom and a few close friends.
there is a school in atlanta i want to go to. its for cosmotology. its called aveda concepts school.
im so happy living here its unreal.
i talked to sean (the ex) on the phone for a while last night.
ive been thinking that i missed him. and that i missed talking to him.
but after talking to him he reassured me that time heals all. and he
doesnt hate me which im pretty excited about.
so i guess its great just being friends with him.
tyler (ahh! <33) sent me some postal service songs and im like in love with them. hes a pretty cool kid. got to meet him the other night at the horse show.
hes sooo sweet<333
yea my moms coming in from ky tomorrow for warped tour and me and michael are going to pick her up. im so freaking excited! i love my mom more than life! and michaels pretty much the best ever too haha.
right now my life is pretty much perfect.
i dont know how it could get any better.
unless my mom moved to GA.
yea right.
i love you all.
just to let you know xoxo |
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[Jul. 31st, 2005|10:16 pm] |
Alright so really i dont know why i got one of these. I guess because im cool like that i dont know.
anyways
went to see horse the band last night
amazing
got to see my stephen
and tyler
and sammi
okay it was just freaking great seeing everyone
so as for me and sarah. everyone knows how that goes. one minutes were killing eachother the next minute
were best friends. i dont know. i guess ill just see what happends.
talked to sean tonight.
that was.. ahh kind of made me sad.
but i guess its all okay :)
my mom is coming to warped tour thanks to michael.
michael... wow..
my best friend ever.
so warped tour is going to be fun like whoa.
i love everyone lots.
just to let you know |
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